05 Aug 2010 at 15:13
Leslie
Growing, Happiness
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Oh God or whomever created us all… who am I?
Here’s what I do know:
I wonder without aim but yet I don’t feel aimless.
I know what I don’t want yet what I do want is still a mystery.
I can love intensely yet love is always just out of reach.
I am confident in my endeavors yet always loose interest before they are fulfilled.
I don’t care to have a luxurious life yet yearn for a break from this one.
I care not about money yet never seem to have enough of it.
I have a big heart even though it has exploded many times, full of emotion.
I am always brave yet always scared.
Every time I think I’ve reached the top, I find another staircase to climb.
I can climb mountains but haven’t found my mountain yet.
I am complete yet, at times, feel the cool wind through the hole in my heart.
People can fascinate and make me crazy at the same time.
I am independent yet sometimes find myself reaching for my partner.
I crave challenges but finding the right one is the biggest challenge of all.
I want extreme happiness yet I know I’m the only thing getting in the way of finding it.
Balanced or off kilter? Not sure 
Basically, these are the things I don’t believe in anymore:
1. Things, substances and even people will make me happy
This is a tricky one because this one can still sneak up on you if you’re not paying attention and freak the shit out of you.
2. Mistakes
If you believe that something you’ve done is a mistake, you are only hurting yourself. Mistakes = Regret. We make choices. If the choices don’t turn out like you want, they become learning experiences. Figure out what you have learned rather than regretting what you’ve done.
3. Expectations
We can never control or predict what people will do so, for me, having expectations of people or situations only leads to disappointment and frustration.
4. Problems are unique
My problems are the world’s problems. They are not special. I like to think of us like a bunch of ants being looked at through a scientists telescope.
5. Anything will lead to my ultimate happiness
I only need to act on my passions so my life follows an unknown path with twists and turns and hills and valleys and so my life is an adventurous journey of a million miles rather than trip around the block to the 7-11.
6. I know the answers
What’s right for me is not always right for anyone else. What’s right for someone else, depends on their own experiences and perspectives.
“I don’t believe in Beatles, I just believe in me” ~John Lennon
25 Jul 2010 at 12:30
Leslie
Happiness, Laughing
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So many things have been on my mind these days. People, places, passion, love, hate, career, kids, future, present, past, friends, happiness.
What’s important? I’ve had several conversations with friends lately about passion and the consensus is that the way to happiness is to have passions in your life. To find what you feel personally passionate about and take every opportunity you come across to allow you to live out that passion. It seems, if we have a passion, then we have an identity, we have a goal or a purpose, we have a love that can’t die. I think a lot of people use relationships to have passion in our lives. But as we all know, the passion in relationships eventually dies out and that leaves us without a passion.
It seems, those people without passions in their life are almost dead inside. They’re lost.
“The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.”